landslide

Posted by meli on Wednesday, February 04, 2015 in meli-ness | No comments

oh, mirror in the sky, what is love

can the child within my heart rise above

and can i sail through the changing ocean tides

can i handle the seasons of my life

ooh, oh oh, i don't know

+stevie nicks+

And yes, yes I do know. Sometimes. I know that I can sail. And that I can handle. And that I can breathe through. All of it. It may not look pretty. There are tears. And screams. And snot. But there is also courage. And strength. And joy. There is the drowning and the flying. The certain and the wavering. The fear and the love. I'm leaning into all of it. Feeling all of it. Loving myself through all of it. 

And also dehydrating all.the.things. Because it keeps my mind busy. And my boys fed. Shock can only be felt in small increments. And I thank my higher frequency for knowing just how much to release. And when. Because sometimes I don't know, too.