Sunday's Songbird ... Love Me For Me

So it's been a couple of weeks now since he's been back.
A couple of weeks since we decided we'd give this thing another try.
In that couple of weeks I have learned I have just one thing to say ...
... this transition period can suck it!

Seriously.
Suck.It!

We'll get through it; I'm sure.
Ask me yesterday, though, and I'd have told you something different.

Perspective.
Which is pretty jaded while riding pms.
It's been super fun. Ha!
And every time I turn around he IS in my face.
Though, probably, not really.
Perspective again.
Sometimes I think perspective can suck it, too.


Love Me For Me  ~Ashlee Simpson
It's been

3 days
You come around here like you know me
Your stuff 

At my place
Next thing you know you'll be usin' my toothpaste
Step off

Sit down

Get ready let me tell you who's the boss now
Stay here

Get out 

Every time I turn around you're in my face
Don't care where you think you've been and how you're getting over
If you think you've got me now just wait it gets much colder

Here I am

perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see...

Love me for me
Stick around

I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave
You'll see...

Love me for me

Shut up 

Come back
No I didn't really mean to say that
I'm mixed up

So what
Yeah you want me so you're messed up too
I love you 

I hate you

If you only knew what I've been through
My head is spinnin 

But my heart is in the right place
Sometimes it has to have itself a little earthquake

Here I am

perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see...

Love me for me
Stick around

I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave
You'll see...

Love me for me

I've been waiting all my life to finally find you
Just so I can push you away
And when you're crawling over broken glass to get to me
That's when I'll let you stay
Oh!

Here I am

perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see...

Love me for me
Stick around

I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave
You'll see...

Love me for me

Love me for me

Here I am

perfect as I'm ever gonna be
You'll see...

Love me for me
Stick around

I'm not the kind of girl you wanna leave
You'll see...

Love me for me

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Wide Sky Days RECAP!

I'm back!
Cali was amazing!
Sun,
and Fun,
and Old Friends,
and The Beach,
and New Friends,
and a Fire Pit!!!

This conference had such a different feel then Life is Good.
Not better. Not worse. Just different.
I love them both!

I think I sat in for 3 minutes of one presentation, I went to a mom's meeting, I helped at the registration table the first day, and I attended all events that centered around food... but other then that I didn't do much "conferencing" at this conference. I did more "sit on my ass at the fire pit" type stuff, lol. And it was good. So, so, so good.

The kids made some great friends and hung out into the wee hours of the morning each day. Minecrafting. Sharing Secrets. Running. Swimming. Truth or Dare. Checking out girls.

We swam in the ocean. And hooped. And went out with adults sans kids. And talked. And hugged. And danced. And laughed; loud. And jumped off a freakin cliff!

Lots of emails to respond to, and letters to write, and hoops to spin, and preparations to make (we're rolling out very soon), and body cleanses to ensue (not the healthiest of vacations, like... at all). But for now ... a music video of our time in Cali! We miss it already. We miss the amazing connections we made with some wonderful people even more!  'Till next year <3



Everybody Ona Move  ~Michael Franti
And you don't stop
And you don't quit
And you don't stop
And you don't quit

Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move
Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move

The movement
Is like a phenomenon
You never know where it's comin' from
You never know when the next big sound gonna come

Baghdad, Hong Kong
Tokyo, King Kong
Synagogue, singsong
Hot beat, car bomb

Don't matter who's on the chart number one
Spearhead sound for the people everyone
Thunder comes from the bass and the drums
Rain or shine never stop anyone

I like my bass loudy, loudy, louder!
I like my bass loudy, loudy, louder!

Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move
Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move

Oh, yes
And you don't stop
And you don't quit
Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes

Touchin' down on mother earth
I take mud and turn it into pottery
Lottery, I give all a chance
As I welcome all to the dance

Angel, criminal, animal
Mineral and spiritual

All sinners, all head-spinners
So-called experts, we're all beginners
Enter the age of Aquarians
Carnivores and vegetarians

It's the next sound wave
Soon I may, ah, ask you to behave
El Presidente, you behave
Once war stops sendin' us to the grave

Vamanos, Vamanos
All walls will fall like dominoes
Earthquakin' and shakin'
Please don't stop, rock

Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move
Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move

Oh, yes
And you don't stop
And you don't quit
And you don't stop

Yes, all walls will fall
All walls will fall
I never quit, I never give up
I'd hate to have me as my own enemy

Because music is not competition
Music is not repetition
Music is love, love for the masses
Love for all classes

Love conquers all
Love accepts all, love respects all
Love dares to dream
A love supreme, a love supreme

Soldier of fortune, open your cookie
Unfold the paper, stop looky looky
Takin' order, the march to the kitchen
Food for the masses, that's the new mission

Salam shalom, shalom salam
The one sound louder than a bomb
The whole world sings this song
Check it, stop, rock

Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move
Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move

Oh, yes
And you don't stop
And you don't quit
And you don't stop
Hold up, hold up, I forgot something

I like my bass loudy, loudy, louder!
I like my bass loudy, loudy, louder!

This track is love fortified
This track is love amplified
This track combats genocide
Seven inch Jamaican forty five

Take a trip Gaza strip
ID's, a bob up, flip
I rock black scorpions
And a shout out to Ethiopians

Shot rings out everybody gonna run
One woman cries out for the loss of her son
Hold it high everybody everyone
All roads lead to love or the one

Don't you forget why you came to the dance
Might never ever be another better chance
Don't you forget why you came to the dance
The drums and bass are the king of the dance
Take a ...

Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move
Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move

Oh, yes
And you don't stop
And you don't quit
Come on, come on

Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move
Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move

Big people ona the move
Little people ona move
Young people ona the move
Old people ona move, come on

Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move
Everybody ona move
Everybody let's move
Yes, yes, yes

Touchin' down on mother earth
I take mud and turn it into pottery
Lottery, I give all a chance
As I welcome all to the dance

Ona move
Everybody let's move

And you don't stop
And you don't quit
Keep rockin', keep rockin' it
Keep shockin' it, come on

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Sunday's Songbird ... Love Me Anyway

Sunday's Sonbird post this week shall be renamed Super Late Monday Melodies and/or Super Super Early Tuesday's Tunes ... due to the whirlwind of crazy going on around here.

He didn't leave.
Nick.
He came in for Rylan's birthday...
and he didn't leave.

A couple of hours after he arrived he told me he wanted this family whole and fighting to make it.
I told him I was already feeling whole, I was happy and moving on, but I told him I'd think about it; we celebrated Rylan's birthday (indoor waterpark hotel fun, ftw!); and a couple of days later I told him I wanted the same. A few hours before his flight the next day he said he wasn't going back.


We're down here in California for Wide Sky Days right now.
Some poolside football and freeze tag has already ensued.
With dancing.
A whole lotta dancing.
Which, lets be honest, has been mostly me shaking my ass while my kids clap and shout "get some, mom ... Get.Some"
And the unschooling party hasn't even started yet.
Cannot.Freakin.Wait
More on this awesomeness later!


I'm damn sure many are thinking I'm an idiot. And I love you people for that. Truly... love the fuckity fuck out of you. We have 15 years into this thing; and the chemistry between us is crazy stupid intense ... there's no denying it. I'm in a much better mental place. I know who I am. I know what I want. He's gone through his own personal growth during this separation. Time will tell if our love, chemistry, and desire to hold on will stand the test. So, I may be an idiot, but I'll be the idiot who went down fighting. I'm cool with that ;-)

And in the meantime ... I wont settle, and I sure as fuck wont be jumping into any one's boxed up version of who they need and/or want me to be. I've flown that coop; and there's no way in hell I'll be wrangled back in. Love me for me ... all of me!
And now; I'm going to bed!



Love Me Anyway  ~Amy Steinberg
i wanna tell you the truth
about how I feel
i wanna give you my love
but I've got to be real

the truth is i'm scared
to let you in
cause I don't wanna go
where i've been

i know this could be different if I just let go
but before we take flight it's only right i let you know
i get down right depressed sometimes
and yes I am a goddess,
but I can be unkind
throw up my hands and just quit trying
i'm a human with emotions
i sure can cry
but love me anyway
come on and love me anyway
love me anyway
come on and love me, love me

honesty is hard
we all hide sometimes
i'm gonna take off my mask
and show you who i am inside


i know this could be different if i just let go
but before we take flight it's only right i let you know
i get down right depressed sometimes
and yes I am a goddess 
but I can be unkind
throw up my hands and just quit trying
i'm a human with emotions
i sure can cry
i get frustrated
and of course i can be wrong
my best can fall short
and my worst can last too long

come on baby
love me anyway
come on and love me anyway
love me anyway
come on and love me, love me

lover i see you
when you're sitting on your phone
lover i see you
when you think you're alone

you get down right depressed sometimes
and yes you are my baby
but you can be unkind
throw up your hands and just quit trying
you're a human with emotions
i've seen you cry
you get frustrated
and of course you can be wrong
your best can fall short
and your worst can last too long

and i am gonna love you anyway
i'm gonna love you anyway
i'm gonna love you anyway
so love me, love me
yea
love me anyway
come on and love me, love me

i'm gonna tell you the truth
about how i feel
i'm gonna give you my love
but i got to be real

truth is I'm scared, so scared
to let you in
cause i don't wanna go
where i've been.

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