June 4, 2010

Drowning ... to put it mildly

Posted by meli on Friday, June 04, 2010 in | No comments
Wow, I can't seem to get caught up.

I was 30 some days behind on my photolog last month before I caught up. I was so excited and proud when I finally caught up, yet here I am, almost 30 days behind ... again! WTF, Charlie, Seriously!

Oye Vey.

On the surface, it's not a big deal, I know, but when I am determined not to let the hurdles I'm leaping in my life right now affect a long term project that is so very important to me ... well, it's a personal battle that I feel I'm losing. That, to me, is a big deal.

I don't want to see my Photo-A-Day, something I've spent the past year and a half working on, fall to the wayside. Another broken, tossed aside piece of my life. I don't want that to happen. Yet, the farther behind I fall, the more overwhelming the task becomes, and the easier it is to put it off.  I fear, without a swift, self imposed kick in the arse, I'll lose touch with this side of myself ... the side that reminds me of who I am, why I'm here, and what I have to offer. The side that reminds me that I am not just a Mother, a Wife, a Daughter, a Friend ... I am so much more. I can't lose her. I wont.

So, here I  am, ready to inflict said arse kicking ... and get it in gear.

I treated myself to a MacBook Pro last month (Happy Mother's Day to me, thankyouverymuch) ... and I have yet to transfer all of my data (namely photos) from my PC over here. THAT is the biggest part of the problem. Over complication is a big turn off for me. Having to dance between two computers proved too annoying for me ... so I stopped bothering.My photos are over there, and I'm over here ... makes it sort of hard to photo blog! ha!

I'm going to set aside some time this weekend to finally merge my files over here. That should help tremendously. Because even though I haven't been blogging them, I HAVE still been photo taking every day. Good Job, Meli!

I'd also like to slowly pick up some of the other projects that I was working on before the new set of marrital woes bombarded me. I was working on opening my own Etsy store to sell some of my photographs. Although, I don't know if I'd be able to stop at just photographs ... I might go a little crazy and sell some of my other passions as well ... as mismatched as they are. My store will be colorful and eclectic ... just like me :-)

I was also in the middle of setting up a photography site... to promote and sell my services. Nothing extrodinary to start off with, simple and affordable sessions, but the hope would be to build on it. I'm not super passionate about making a full time career out of portrait sessions, but I would get a lot of joy out of part time work ... helping people preserve their memories.

I also came across a children's story that I wrote several years ago. It's a really rough 1st draft, but the concept is so cute. I had such a warm, cozy, fond feeling while re-reading it. I'd like to do something with it. Polish it up, illustrate it, work to have it published. Dream Big or Go Home, right?! lol.

Ooh, and blogging, of course. I often mention how much better and balanced I feel when I blog regularly, and I often vow to get back into it ... yet it's usually the first thing I let slip when things start flying.

I am months behind on my dread updates, tsk tsk tsk ... lol!  Not to mention, our family has been through 3, yes THREE, surgeries since my last blog. We've had a birthday. A meeting (and hug!!!)with my favorite singer. No more training wheels vlog. Hooping vlog. And a little something called Mud Mania ... Ooh, I am far far behind! Stay tuned ...

(I may back date posts for archiving purposes. I'm crazy like that ... I like my posts to be dated for the specific day that the event occured. So, you may have to search for em!  Or I may just throw it all into one giant mega "catchup" post, which will require you set aside a chunk of time to really soak it all in. Either way ... it's going to trouble! lol! ).


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