i am.

Posted by meli on Friday, June 11, 2010 in family, marriage, military/retirement, poetry | 1 comment

i am beautiful

i am caring

i am smart

i am witty

i am warm, and compassionate, and joyful, and loyal, and spunky, and capable, and sincere, and romantic, and thoughtful, and determined, and trust-worthy, and kind-hearted.

i am.

The man I have loved for almost half of my life has taken such a toll on my sense of self. He took me for granted. He didn't appreciate me. He tossed me aside. I began to feel unworthy. Unwanted. Undesirable. I lost my purpose, my goals, my head, my heart in a mad dash to help him save his. And he let me. He let me.

How could he let me?

He said he loved me, he'd protect me, he'd always be there for me, yet he was so quick to overlook me. To shove me to the side. To stomp right through me in order to keep pulling more for himself. He threw me to the ground time and time again just to soften the blow he felt when falling apart. And I let him. I let him.

How could I let him?

I am more then that. I mean more then that. I deserve more then that.

i am beautiful.

i am caring.

i am smart.

i am witty.

i am warm, and compassionate, and joyful, and loyal, and spunky, and capable, and sincere, and romantic, and thoughtful, and determined, and trust-worthy, and kind-hearted.

i am.