June 29, 2010

Who says you can't go home

Posted by meli on Tuesday, June 29, 2010 in , , , , | 3 comments

What's with all the smiles?

Daddy came home!

Well, technically, he's not allowed to come home (thanks, army, for caring so much!) ... but he was released from the hospital. The kids hadn't seen him in over 2 weeks; they were thrilled! So good to see all 4 of my boys smiling again.

He's doing better. There is more of a gentle understanding that he seems to possess now. It's subtle, but I definitely notice it. He has more of an understanding about himself, his injuries, his changes, and most importantly, his limitations. Something that he had never quite grasped before. He assumed himself fully well and capable of pursuing a day to day life no different then it was before the injuries. When he would come up short, he internalized it as failing, and would berate himself into the ground with guilt and hatred. It would only be a matter of time before that negative energy spilled over, onto, and through those around him.

I see a shift in him that wasn't there before. Someone who knows he isn't capable of what he once was, and accepts that. Someone who doesn't deem himself a failure for not living up to his self imposed high expectations; who instead knows his limits, and works fully within them. I am full of love and light that, with this new sense of self, he will break through to the other side of his anxiety and depression, finally.
He's worth it.


  1. Hey Melissa- Those three little faces smiling are all worth what you and Nick are going through. You are stronger than you think, and I'm proud to see you guys hanging there for better and for worse, in sickness and in health. Someday I hope we can meet!!

  2. I have been praying for your family since I found your blog - keep up the good fight, you are not alone- sending love and light to you all :)


  3. Meli~ so much love being sent to you and your family. I'm definitely rooting for you all :) Will have more time to catch up when I get back home and settled, you are on my mind until then...